Things are not so bad after all!

Well, yes it was a bad day on Sunday and Im sure that what I was feeling was my bump getting tight but the appointment on Monday went really well.

I still love love my consultant, I hate the internal scans but somehow he makes me feel at ease and I have to remember that nothing they do to me is as painful or as horrid as loosing Archie.
Especially the weekly progesterone injections!!!!

So my cervix has not changed and nor is it likely to change in the next two weeks before I go back. And fingers crossed it isn't going to change before I get to 24 weeks! So confident am I that I have gone out and bought another pair of H&M maternity jeans!

So on a less pregnancy related subject...we have booked our family holiday and we had to book the baby on the flight so Grace it is! I love it, but think that we will probably end up calling her Gracie as a sort of shorter version!
DP also felt the baby last night, she was kicking me on my left side and it was such a special moment for us both. A reminder that our daughter is there and on her way!

So that's pretty all there is for today. I guess there is some other family stuff going on but I need to get my head around that a bit before I post it.

Not such a good day.

It had to happen, ive had a rubbish day. I think I have been having some tightenings in my belly and this means that things are not going well. It could be many things. It could be in my head, or I need to realise I am having a high risk pregnancy and I need to slow down. Luckly I went with a very good freind to a childrens musem and she took Mr T round which is great and she is so good with him. But he then ends up thinking Im rubbish and wont even come to me. I guess its hard not really knowing what is going on. It just makes me sad that i am not going to have the lovley fluffy pregnancy and I will have to make it up to him when baby arrives! Which she will I have to belive it.

I am a lazy blogger! But Im also 20 weeks pregnant!

Well, I still cant write Archie birth story, maybe I should leave it and just have it in my head?

Im now 20 weeks and 4 days exactly!!! I am so pleased to be this far and I want to remember how amazing it is to be this far on and that I am so lucky that I am just kind of being like any other pregnant woman. Im not on bed rest and apart from lots and lots of appointments with the amazing Mr Simpson Im just great.

I do get anxious, really bad. Like today, I just had this thought, what if, my waters go in the next 3 weeks? I mean it probably wont happen, the injections are working and I am not having contractions and I am also feeling so good. BUT BUT BUT, i have to remember my cervix has strated to open and there is only a stich holding my baby inside me.

Oh and did I say Im having a girl!!!! Now thats a whole other post on wether or not I am going to have a better relationship with her than I did with my Mum. They do say pregnancy is like going through 3 years of therapy!!!

Well, DP is at work and I have to go and do the dishwasher and then I am going to sit down with some mint match makers and giant parma violets, you just have to love the pregnancy cravings!!!!!!