I Must do some work!

Well, I am working. But I am also doing a course and I HAVE to get some work done on my next assignment or I am going to be in BIG trouble!!!!

I still have headaches and and I am so hot, my office is an old pie factory so it has a tin roof and its cold in the morning. So I need a jumper, then its like being boiled in the afternoon! Im not joking!

So.....everyone at work is being so lovely. What did I expect? I guess being a lesbian and not being very conventional I think that I felt people would be a little strange with me. But they are all so excited and thats great.

I am still obsessivly looking for maternity clothes in fact I have set up a new account today at Next. And get this I have even thought ahead and bought some jeans in a larger size for when iv had the baby!!!!! WTF!!!!

I am going to be in trouble with DP when she finds out which she will because I dont keep secrets. And I have to confess. I used to keep things in my boot and I did buy a blouse a while ago and I seriously forgot about it and then cleard my boot out and there it was. DP thought I was joking when I said I forgot about it...but really I had!!!

My belly at night is really big, I guess its all gas and stuff, it was the same when i wasnt pregnant and then it would go back again. Part of me is now moarning the fact it will never look like that again. But Im sure that it will be worth it. No I KNOW it will be worth it!

Right just been given loads to do so have to defo go now!!!

Headaches!

Well, ive got horrid head aches and even worse I have had some sort of cold/flu thing which was also around last week when I was off on my own with Mr T.

So we went out last Friday with our freinds for our Birthday and I felt so awful that I didnt have the main course and then felt better so I had some chocolate cake. Think all my freinds thought I was putting it on!

What has made me sad is that I've been sleeping loads in the afternoon so DP has been looking after Mr T and doing all his tea and bathtime routine. Although I dont think I will get away with that for the next few days! And really I dont want to miss out on stuff cuase Im pregnant but sometimes Im just so tired!

We have ahd some organic veg and fruit delivered and this has made me feel all healthy. I kow pregnancy is the time when you should be able to eat what you want but really I think it should be the time when you protect your abby as well.

I almost forgot! I'm sure that I fel the baby! Sometimes there is a hard bit on the left side just under my tummy and it dissapears. As i know that baby is on my left side of my uterus then I'm sure it was! And then there was this funny feeling that I had never really felt before! I was like something moving from one side to another. I wanted to tell DP but it was during the night after a wee so thought it best not too!

We off to a family wedding this weekend which I am looking forward to, I want show off my little bump! It gets bigger when I eat so it should be interesting after the meal!!!


Well enough for now!

Getting Fatter!

Well I finally have a belly and I have had to put one of my pairs of jeans away!

I have been to have my bra fitted at M and S and its the best thing EVER!!!!!! I finally feel comfortable and happy with my new big boobs!

We have had some lovely our time over the weekend, we went shopping and then we went to Matt and Jills for dinner to celebrate Em's birthday. I am still OK about not drinking, I know growing a baby is much more important.

I have teribble back ache this evening and I am wondering if I should give up my subscription with Fertilty Freind. I am fed up of reading about misscarriges. I know that this baby is going to Ok, I will have this baby...I am determind. I know it is more than that, not in my hands but I still have to have belief that my postitivity is going to get me through this.

I am looking forward to more us time this weekend. We have Friday night away from Mr T and then we can another lie in together. It has nearly been 4 years and I feel more and more in love with her all the time.

I could not have wished for anything better for my life.

Mr T is 1 and I have been to the hospital!

Well what a day!

Im not really in the mood for typing but......Its DS's bithday and it was such an amzing time that I want to remember a few things about his 1st Birthday!

I have had some spotting for 4 days and then this morning of all mornings! I have some red spotting. I was so upset, I just wanted to enjoy Mr T and not be worrying!

So I decide not to go to work and wait and ring the hospital. In the mean time we have opend lots of cards and presents and he was in a great mood! DP and I played with him as we had time and he sat on our knees and read some books. We all laughed as we tickled him and when DP went to finish getting ready i chased him on his knees around the ront room.

I tried to keep my worry at bay but every time I could feel something 'down there' I thought it was blood.

We end up going to the hospital and I am scanned and they try to do an internal but it was painful and she didnt seem spend too long on it! Good job!

DP and I watched as the doctor scanned and neither of us could see the heart beat and syb wasnt moving! I was so nervous! DP and I looked at each other and then she said there it is! There is the heart beat, we saw the legs that were crossed and my uterus. It was properly heart shaped so strange! She showed us Syb in another positon as well and I spotted the heart beat on my own straight away. Syb looks comfy in there and the report from the doc says that my uterus isnt too bad so I am now hoping I can go full term and have a natural birth!

I have come home, via next to buy some wedding shoes!!!! Naughty! And I have finished my assignment and then did my time tables! So I am ahead of myself and I am now going to get Mr T soon and make sure that we have a great evening. Relaxed and how it should be.

It is funny that we saw Syb on the screen on Mr T's birthday! He was jut arriving this time last year. Holding him then and now is the most amazing thing, it wipes away all the lack of sleep all the times we havent known what to do...everything. We are a happy family and we will continue to be forever.

I just knew when I saw Syb there on the screen that we will met her soon, well not too soon. October I hope!

We are currently liking Alice(which was my great grandmothers name who was born on the 7th Oct) or Alfie!

That may all change next week!