11 Weeks and Im now 31!

So last week I turned 31 and I had the best day. I used to like going shopping but after I thought about the day I realised that now we have a child and we have to change our priorities things that we used to do I now cherish more than ever.

I just wanted to sit down and eat a Mc Donalds breakfast with the tv on and not feel guilty. I wanted to have a long bath and not worry that I had to get out quickly! So thats what I did and DS had to go to child minder. But I think he likes it there or am I justifying it! DP was happy for him to go too and we enjoyed the morning together. It was sunny and we took the dog for a walk and chatted as we do..about nothing mostly but laughing all the time. i remember we even had a chat about trains as we crossed the railyway track. I love the fact that we just talk and talk and its so easy and not forced.

I also saw a consultant and she has said that there is nothing they can do and as she said lots of times I am a varient of normal, which made u both smile!!!! So I have an extra scan at 28 weeks and I also see the consultant that day too. So its fingers crossed that my little baby grows and grows and stays sfe within me. It feels like such a responsibilty to do everything I can to make sure that Syb is safe.

I am worrying less and less now. I think thats why I was having problems not expressing myself. I think I go into myself so much when I worry and I know I shouldnt but thats how I cope I guess!?

So I saw my family over the weekend and this was good, I laughed so much at my brother, all he was doing was taking a matress upstairs and he just comes out with silly little sayings and I was trying to have a lie and I heard him and just started to laugh! He then called out Jennifer in the way that he does and he came in as I laughed!


Seeing Laura was good too and she was so pleased about Syb! She had no idea! Im disapointed in Tom, he seems so distant from us all at the moment.

Paul and Karen gae us a futon which has saved us so much and DP has now started on the attic, this makes her wife very happy!!!

I have not had much sickness, and I havent been that tired, which worries me and tomorrow I am going to the midwife and hopfully we can hear the heart beat, I know I will cry if we do and I am praying all the time that we do.

I am then meeting all our Gueisley friends for lunch, this is really important to me and I am so glad I am freinds with them too.

So I shall update tomorrow and see if Syb is still ok! I just know she is, I feel her. Deep inside me, growing and we all ready love each other. I just know DP and DS do too!