11 Weeks and Im now 31!

So last week I turned 31 and I had the best day. I used to like going shopping but after I thought about the day I realised that now we have a child and we have to change our priorities things that we used to do I now cherish more than ever.

I just wanted to sit down and eat a Mc Donalds breakfast with the tv on and not feel guilty. I wanted to have a long bath and not worry that I had to get out quickly! So thats what I did and DS had to go to child minder. But I think he likes it there or am I justifying it! DP was happy for him to go too and we enjoyed the morning together. It was sunny and we took the dog for a walk and chatted as we do..about nothing mostly but laughing all the time. i remember we even had a chat about trains as we crossed the railyway track. I love the fact that we just talk and talk and its so easy and not forced.

I also saw a consultant and she has said that there is nothing they can do and as she said lots of times I am a varient of normal, which made u both smile!!!! So I have an extra scan at 28 weeks and I also see the consultant that day too. So its fingers crossed that my little baby grows and grows and stays sfe within me. It feels like such a responsibilty to do everything I can to make sure that Syb is safe.

I am worrying less and less now. I think thats why I was having problems not expressing myself. I think I go into myself so much when I worry and I know I shouldnt but thats how I cope I guess!?

So I saw my family over the weekend and this was good, I laughed so much at my brother, all he was doing was taking a matress upstairs and he just comes out with silly little sayings and I was trying to have a lie and I heard him and just started to laugh! He then called out Jennifer in the way that he does and he came in as I laughed!


Seeing Laura was good too and she was so pleased about Syb! She had no idea! Im disapointed in Tom, he seems so distant from us all at the moment.

Paul and Karen gae us a futon which has saved us so much and DP has now started on the attic, this makes her wife very happy!!!

I have not had much sickness, and I havent been that tired, which worries me and tomorrow I am going to the midwife and hopfully we can hear the heart beat, I know I will cry if we do and I am praying all the time that we do.

I am then meeting all our Gueisley friends for lunch, this is really important to me and I am so glad I am freinds with them too.

So I shall update tomorrow and see if Syb is still ok! I just know she is, I feel her. Deep inside me, growing and we all ready love each other. I just know DP and DS do too!

Sickness

Well, morning sickness has deffinatly arrived! I am not feeling to well at all. Luckly over the last few days I have been able to have afternoon naps to get rid of it and also because I have been so tired!!!!!!

We went to DP's mothers for lunch yesterday which is normally ok but what made it better was that I ended up feeling awful after lunch and MIL was sweet enough to tell me to go and nap! So I got to have 2 hours sleep whilst we were there! I didnt think that she was taken with me but she seems genuienly pleased that I am going to have a baby!

Work is awful, everyone that I like or frieinds with has now left. So I left with people that are not horrid just not people I like. Sometimes they can be horrid. Like the comments today about my George Micheal tickets, these people are supposed to be all inclusive and they just aren't sometimes. So not only am I sat there feeling sick and tired and i cant tell anyone yet and Im with people I dont like!!!!

So moan, moan moan!

On a lighter note....Im 31 on Wednesday! EEK! Not sure how that leaves me feeling! Im ok really! Cant do anything about it and I am so happy I am going to have a baby that I'm sure that I dont care!

We are off to see my brother this coming weekend and I m really looking forward to seeing him and spending time down south, I love being around my family. We spend so much time up here, its lovely to see them.

Well, I am going to go....I think Ive summed up all thats going on...Im sick, tired, nearly older and happy to be getting fatter! Although I must just remind myself that even when I have eaten I still feel sick and my boobs still really hurt!!!! I want to remember everything!

Sickness

Well, morning sickness has deffinatly arrived! I am not feeling to well at all. Luckly over the last few days I have been able to have afternoon naps to get rid of it and also because I have been so tired!!!!!!

We went to DP's mothers for lunch yesterday which is normally ok but what made it better was that I ended up feeling awful after lunch and MIL was sweet enough to tell me to go and nap! So I got to have 2 hours sleep whilst we were there! I didnt think that she was taken with me but she seems genuienly pleased that I am going to have a baby!

Work is awful, everyone that I like or frieinds with has now left. So I left with people that are not horrid just not people I like. Sometimes they can be horrid. Like the comments today about my George Micheal tickets, these people are supposed to be all inclusive and they just aren't sometimes. So not only am I sat there feeling sick and tired and i cant tell anyone yet and Im with people I dont like!!!!

So moan, moan moan!

On a lighter note....Im 31 on Wednesday! EEK! Not sure how that leaves me feeling! Im ok really! Cant do anything about it and I am so happy I am going to have a baby that I'm sure that I dont care!

We are off to see my brother this coming weekend and I m really looking forward to seeing him and spending time down south, I love being around my family. We spend so much time up here, its lovely to see them.

Well, I am going to go....I think Ive summed up all thats going on...Im sick, tired, nearly older and happy to be getting fatter! Although I must just remind myself that even when I have eaten I still feel sick and my boobs still really hurt!!!! I want to remember everything!

Bad Blogger

Well I'm a bad blogger and the thing that I really wanted to do was make sure that I kept upwith it so I could remeber everything about my pregnancy!

So this is just today and then on Sunday I am going to sit down and write lots and lots about the last week. or so. Well it will turn out to be two weeks by then!

So her is todays news!

I am nto well and havent been since last week really. Ive had a cold which to varying degress we all have.

DS has been the worse and he has been really poorly, I had to have yesterday off and DP is off today.

He has been sick since Sunday and has had two visits to the doctors. I have been really emotional about it, I think that its a mixture of my pregnancy and also just the fact that I really love him and dont want him to be so ill.

You just want to hug him and make sure that he is ok but sometimes he just pushes us away! He is funny like that!

I have had little syb niggles as I call them! Just little pains on the left side where I know she is.

I like feeling it, I dont think that it means anything is wrong. I really want to feel done with worrying. I want to enjoy watching my body and my baby grow.

So from here on in thats my new resolution, not so much new year just a new pregnancy one!

I also spoke to my Dad today and my step mother, she seemed interested in how I was doing which is nice. I want to tell Mum so badly that I am going to give birth to the grandchild she never thought she would have and that I am already a mummy. I feel down about it so badly sometimes and have to push it away. For some reason, I am feeling lots of emotions and I dont feel like showing them.

I am not sure if I have always been like this with DP but I am at the moment. Strange and I have no answers.

Well...anyway. I am seeing Dad on the 18th and then they are hopefully coming up for DS first birthday!

Yeah!

A spot of bother!

Well after three horrid shifts DP, DS and I went out for the day into the neaerst city for lunch at to pick up a pair of glasses for me.

During lunch I go to the loo and there and behold more spotting. So I call the local early pregnancy unit and they are going to scan me tomorrow. DP now thinks I am an alarmist as I haven had anymore since and thinks this is just an excuse for another scan! As if I would do that!

I also had an appointment with the midwife and seemed to be very realxed about my whole strange shapped uterus! She was nice though and I now have lots of things to read and my own plastic notes.

All the little things about DP's pregnancy I remember like the plastic folder I now have and its funny! I am so pleased I am pregnant! I love the fact I now have big boobs.

In the bastroom thns morning whilst DP and DS slept in I checked out all my blue viens! Its fab!

I was feeling better last week and then on Friday after waiting for ages for the gas man to turn up DS and I fell asleep on the sofa. Gas man turns up, we woke up with a start and I felt AWFUL!!! Head ache, hungry, sick!!!! It was fab!

How strange now that all the things that I would hat to be I am so pleased with!

Last weekend I was sick and I was laughing at the end! I hate being sick!

Well today is another lovely family day,. we are going for a family walk and then a realxing and early night for me and DP.

I wish we had more weekends like this next wekend we are going something every day! But hey if we were bored then I would complain!

I am sat at work and Ive got such a bad headache! But Im leaving soon so I will be able to drink and eat at home.

I missed a team away day last week, in prefrence for my midwife appointment. People were getting at me casue I wasnt going. i then burst into tears and then made a right fool of myself so i know that tomorrow I will defo be the odd one out when it soems to the conversations as to what happend last week.

I just have to thnk nothing is more importnat than our next arrival!

Im Now pregnant!

Well I had totally forgotton that I started this! I had also started a paper diary but this will be much quicker seeing as I actually type quicker than I write!

Sad but true!

So there is lots and lots that has happend but breifly.....I got a BFP! I then spotted for 9 days, I was off work for 2 weeks then I had a scan at 6weeks and 4 days of 3 days depending who you are me or the docs!

I was then told that I have a bicornuate uterus. This means that I have a funny shaped uterus!

So this could mean anything....I could miscarrige, but thats worse case...or I could have to have a c section or I may have a pre term labour.

But we shall see I have an apointment with my midwife on Thursday.

DP as always is being amazing and is allowing me to take it easy as possible!

So I will fill in.

Here is my daily symptoms update......no nausea, boobs are sore. Not really to say which in itself worries me so I tested and it was positive so thats good!

Its Chirstmas!

Well its been a while so here I am just checking in before Christmas.

We are not trying this month so it is nice to not have my life consumed with the whole what is happening to my body. Although it seems that my body is showing fab fertile signs this month so its a bit frustrating!

Oh well the reasons were very good not to try, DP would have been away for evey insemination and also the donor and his wife would have been away next year when the baby would have been born if it worked this month! So doble whamy basicly!

Anyway.....DP has had an arguement with her mother so it looks like we may be on our won for Christmas day and we may not be going out Friday as she was baby sitting.

DP is also out tonight on a works do and then we are out Thursdy night at some friends. And then the grily night out Friday! I think we are going to need Christmas to relax!

Although we are then going on a bit of a tour down south where we are going to see lots of family of mine!!!

So there we go, lots going on but still no baby! I am hopefull that becasue we have had a break I will then feel a bit better next month!